When I was 16, my boyfriend at the time introduced me to a then little known band named Paramore. I didn’t know it at the time, but sitting on his sofa watching 17 year old Hayley Williams handbang her way through the video for pressure would change who I was as a person forever.
Not long after that first taste of Paramore’s music I became a dedicated fan. A few years later, Hayley gave a testament about the importance of positivity for a company ran by Toby Morse (singer of a band called H20). Her words in that video changed my entire perspective on life. She spoke about how she liked to surround herself with people who made choices so that they could be happy. I’d never really heard anybody speak like that before. I’ve since learned that instant gratification and long term happiness are very different beasts, which eat very different food.
The power of positivity is something that I try and keep in the back of my mind. It’s not always easy. For example, over the last year, I’ve gained about a stone of the four stone I originally lost. It’s discouraging, and I feel like the grip I had on my health has been doused in oil and I’m constantly battling to get a firm hold on it again.
The last few days have been terrible in terms of health. It’s been my birthday, and I’ve eaten SO much junk and not worked out (aside from walking 16km around London yesterday). The result is that I’m left feeling sluggish, heavy and generally unhealthy. When I feel like that, it’s hard to keep the self loathing and negativity at bay.
It’s times like that, where Hayley’s testament really helps me out. I try to remember that long term happiness comes from making a series of positive choices and decisions. I’m in control of those decisions. And I can start making them again any time I choose to.
Tomorrow, I’m getting back on the healthy lifestyle wagon.